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by Toadette » Fri May 19, 2017 8:14 am

My life givers have a very strong opinion about Mary Jane,The only girl I've ever loved.

If you're a functioning alcoholic, maybe don't lecture me about smoking weed on my birthday.

Seems like something I shouldn't have to say, yet here we are.

So, I disclosed a "white lie" to my mother.
When she had built me up into a massive hurricane, I stepped away from her little ocean-side hypocrisy.
I'm an amazing adult.
Woo.

I eventually returned withered from self-loathing moments later, to discuss this white lie of mine.

I told her that the dark thoughts are agonizing, belittling, compulsive, drowning, enveloping.
I'm going in alphabetical order, that's how easy it is to describe the polar bear.
The furious.
The god.
The hysterical.
The inevitable.
I told her in these dark moments I have seconds to decide my fate.
So either I drown with liquor, or I fly with weed. These are my only options in fleeting moments, and neither are sleek.
(Insert white lie here). I do enjoy it and it does help.
If I admit it's fun and pulled the hands from alcohol, I'm a pot head.
If I admit it keeps me on this planet, I'm a martyr.

And the world turns onward, 24 more hours.
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by AvantGarde » Fri May 19, 2017 8:22 am

Labels, labels, who needs more labels?

If it helps you and doesn't harm you, a white lie to protect yourself is more than okay.

You first.
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by Toadette » Sat May 20, 2017 8:30 am

Real talk but it'd be nice if someone would finally listen.
If someone would give me the time I give them during their rants maybe they would back off.
If you don't know how to "fix" me then back off.

I've dealt with this for years, it's not like you suddenly popping in is going to help.
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by AvantGarde » Sat May 20, 2017 10:44 am

Sorry, can't fix you Toad. Can only try to provide relief. :?
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by Toadette » Sat May 20, 2017 12:02 pm

I don't really want to be anything but me, but I think me doesn't know how to be okay. It's like I'm on the sidelines cheering myself on, and then me gets blitzed and breaks a leg, goes on the stretcher and is like: I'd like to think me for supporting me and good night
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by AvantGarde » Sat May 20, 2017 10:17 pm

Do you have any friends you can rely on?
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by Toadette » Sun May 21, 2017 8:08 pm

Idiot.

That's all I need to see.

Peace out girl scout.
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by BillyGoat » Sun May 21, 2017 10:18 pm

Toadette I'm sorry for snapping at you. I overreacted in my last post, so I deleted it.

Apologies for losing my cool.

Still don't think you should be criticising people for replying to your post with good intentions, but I could have expressed that a lot better...
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